I, Monster by Tom Philbin

Author:Tom Philbin
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781616143145
Publisher: Prometheus Books
Published: 2018-03-13T04:00:00+00:00

Dennis Nilsen

BACKGROUND

When he was very young, Dennis Nilsen started to feel emotionally drawn to boys. At sixteen he joined the army, and then in 1972 he became a cop. This gave him access to the morgue, where he could act out deep-seated necrophiliac urges. Eventually, Nilsen started a relationship with a man named David Gallichan, and when Gallichan broke it off, Nilsen felt profound abandonment. He began a series of gay relationships, taking men to his apartment in the Cricklewood section of London. On December 29, 1978, he brought a young man home. When the young man wanted to leave, Nilsen strangled him.

He related to the corpse as if it were still alive, even trying to have sex with it, and spent the entire day marveling at the corpse. He then carefully pried up the floorboards, laid the body between the wooden frames, and replaced the floorboards.

Then he started his murder career in earnest, and over the next few years Nilsen killed thirteen men and stored their bodies in various places in his apartment—under floorboards, the cupboard, the closet, outside in a garden shed. Eventually, because of the stench inside his apartment, Nilsen cut up and tried to flush the bodies, but this led to a clogging of the plumbing drain lines, and to his arrest.

MURDERING A GUEST

Below Dennis Nilsen describes how he murdered a young man he had picked up and brought back to his apartment named Stephen Sinclair.

“I am sitting cross-legged on the carpet, drinking and listening to music. It finished with the theme from Harry's Game. I drain my glass and take the phones off. Behind me sits Stephen Sinclair on the lazy chair. He was crashed out with drink and drugs. I sit and look at him. I stand up and approach him. My heart is pounding. I kneel down in front of him. I touch his leg and say, ‘Are you awake?’ There is no response. ‘Oh Stephen,’ I think, ‘here I go again.’ I get up and go slowly and casually through to the kitchen. I take some thick string from the drawer and look at it on the stainless steel draining board. ‘Not long enough. I think, I go to the cupboard in the front room and search inside. On the floor therein I find an old tie. I cut a bit off…I go back into the kitchen and make up the ligature. I look into the back room and Stephen has not stirred. Bleep [Nilsen's dog] comes in and I speak to her and scratch her head. ‘Leave me just now, Bleep. Get your head down, everything's all right.’ She wags her tail and slinks off into the front room. Her favourite place is on one of the armchairs in there, where she curls up. Looking back I think she knew what was to happen. Even she became resigned to it. If there was a violent struggle, she would always become excited and start barking. I was relaxed. I never contemplated morality. This was something which I had to do….

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